The Offering

“Abraham did not doubt God’s promise in unbelief; rather, he was empowered by faith and gave glory to God and was fully convinced that what God had promised God was also able to do.”
—Romans 4:20-21

When I look back at the whole scope of my life, I see an endless river of grace. I also see that on the surface of that river I have flailed and splashed about, trying ceaselessly to control the direction and flow, trying to wrench some self-concocted version of “happiness” out of reality for myself, as if this were possible. If you’ve ever tried to swim in a strong current, you know this will simply leave you exhausted. It’s when you let go and float that you can be swept to safety.

What can I say or do? I am speechless with awe and amazement at the reality of what is. I can only give up this ridiculous offering of what I am, just as I am, offer it back to the river from whence it came, with gratitude, with adoration, with love.